about me

22 (he/him) transmasc
♌︎ leo ISFP 4w5 phlegmatic
PDD, CPTSD, AuDHD, BPD

mood:

retrospectivei was born and raised down in south FL. i'm a self-proclaimed artist and freelance illustrator. i've been drawing from as far back as i can remember (approx. 2009) and have been a somewhat semi-professional freelance artist since mid-2018.i'm a transmasculine individual and have been on T since october of 2020. i haven't wittled down my gender to anything specific. i am what i feel, and i like it that way.i have a spanning multitude of interests; some major ones that helped make me into who i am today would be: Sonic the Hedgehog, Pokémon, Steven Universe, Undertale, a small handful of anime (Soul Eater, Naruto, BNHA, Evangelion), breakcore, old 2000's internet culture, and the furry fandom.beginningi don't really remember my childhood- but i know, and am reminded always, that i have always been more timid and reserved than others my age. i wasn't interested in much things that everyone else would deem as normal. during recess, my class went outside and played baseball while i hung around trees and pretended to be a cat—that kind of stuff.
to my knowledge, the very first fandoms i were really in were the Sonic the Hedgehog and Warrior Cats fandom, as i have kept really poorly made drawings i made from when i was young (elementary school age) of the characters.around this time is when i finally had gained access to the family computer, and it wasn't long until i had stumbled upon DeviantArt culture, my first taste of the online art community. i wasn't very involved in the community yet per-se, and for various reasons including this i wasn't very prominent as an individual on the internet apart from consuming the content i enjoyed then.thenat around age 13, i gave in to some much-repressed frustrations and came out as trans to my immediate family. this was the beginning of a lot of pain that would last for a very long time, even now. they were not accepting of me in the very beginning of my transition, fueling the ever-growing depression i was already afflicted with.my teen years were something i dreaded for a very long time. being forced to socialize with others and the fear of peer-driven ridicule was not something i liked thinking about very much. i had gotten involved with people i shouldn't have been with, and in turn was hurt pretty badly, causing multiple mental health crises and a lot of trauma that i still deal with to this day.throughout highschool was the time i was most involved in the DeviantArt and Instragram art communities, which is where i started to develop my art and following. i finally was able to apply myself and create things that made me and others feel good, which i feel is the whole point of my art journey. i also realized that as i gained different interests and followed different artists that i wasn't tied down to the emo dog community, and i could draw and create so much more than just that.nowi enjoy art more and more every day, and see my work as an extension of myself. just like my art, i'm ever-evolving, never in one definitive state for any extended amount of time. i've had a lot of shortcomings throughout my life; i've hit several rock-bottoms, i've been unkind towards others, i've been unstable, wishy-washy, selfish, and largely imperfect- but i feel like without all my past mistakes, past friendships, memories, and failures, i would not have grown into the person i am today. i am grateful for many of the things i have today, a budding art career, a beautiful and loving partner, but i am most thankful for my past for giving me the strength to keep going.